Sunday, March 22, 2009

Finally updating with more than just a picture.

This will be a long one.. so watch out. this is a school related one, spring break blog is coming.



Disclaimer:
Some things are repeated from the last post because i wasn't sure if i had said them or not

A few weeks ago, we had "Family Fun Night" During Family Fun Night, I feel as though the teachers I work with are finally seeing me as a peer. The other second grade teachers took my opinions and insight and we really collaborated. They gave me actual lessons to teach to the parents. This is important because as a student teacher, parents do not always understand my role in the classroom. I was able to share some of my teaching methods. It was so important because I feel as I am no longer simply seen as a helper in the classroom, but an actual teacher.


During tutoring last week, I was helping some of my student practice counting money. One of them in particular had a break down during class because she was so frustrated and was struggling. So, I brought some fake money to tutoring in the dorm. I told my students they only had to do a few problems. As soon as I saw they were starting to get it, they were free to go. I really did not want to force them too much. The student who was struggling the most was there the longest because she “wants to get a 100%.” This made me feel good because she really wanted my help.

One Saturday one of the women who worked at the dorm invited us to go with her to her niece’s first birthday party. This was a great experience to have the opportunity to meet other people. We were able to see the grandfather give a prayer before we ate. We also helped put shiskabobs together for the meal. While there, we also had the opportunity to meet most of her family. After the Grandfather said the Prayer, before we ate, we all drank from the same glass of water this was particularly interesting to me because in the Jewish religion we do the same thing with a glass of wine. I was able to see a part of the religious aspect of Navajo culture. I also had a conversation about religion with another staff member and after talking to the residential director, I learned that the Navajo Religion and the Jewish religion are very similar.

Going horseback riding was a definite highlight even though I was so sore afterward. It had been many years since I had gone horseback riding, but it was a great way to talk to others and just relax while doing something almost new. I also got to enjoy an open landscape down in a canyon, which was amazing to see. During this time, I learned about how to groom a horse, which is just fun to know, and how horses are great at reading people. Personally, I really got to see how much I can enjoy something that I haven’t done in years; it is something that I might want to do even when I am back as a way to relax. Additionally, I really liked seeing the openness and the beauty the world had to offer of an almost untouched landscape. This is something that I might only be able to see here.

About few weeks or so before this, I went finishing with a family that works at the school. It was a great way to socialize with adults outside the school setting. I had some very nice conversations with one of the women about our families. This also opened the doors for other activities. Going on this outing setup the leaping pad I needed to help myself feel involved with people in Shonto. As I started to get the mid-semester blues, this pulled me out of my funk and helped me feel like I was doing something. It got me to really stop feeling sorry for myself. It was my first time fishing, and I caught a fish, one of the high school teachers cooked it for me, and it was amazing. (it was trot)


Before I left the classroom last week, I started my students on writing letters, they now have pen-pals in the 6th grade. I think this is a great way for them to learn on both a social and academic level. I just hope that my host teacher will keep up with this as I am now working with the reading Coaches, on a reading program I am not too found of. Leaving the classroom is a disappointment to me. As frustrated as I sometimes get, I really am going to miss the students and working with them. As I move into my reading placement, I feel like I might spend more time working with assessments and staff development. I will really miss working with the students and seeing the gains they make. I do not feel like I will get to see the classroom aspect because I will be so focused on assessments, especially as AIMS testing approaches; the school is extremely worried about that right now, so it is where most of the attention in being placed.
The AIMs( Arizona's Standardized test.. same thing as ISTEP or the Proficiency test) testing is a major issue in the school right now. There are a bunch of students in mandatory tutoring from 330-520 after school, which is such a long day or those kids. We have also received emails from the administration telling us to teach to the test. Meaning the teachers need to take time out of their normal instruction and teach the students what is on the test, and that's how they will spend the day. this is so important that the school passes the test (and makes AYP) because of school politics(which i will not get into on here). The test is in two weeks, so for the next week or so everything at the school be about this standardized test the third through 8th graders are taking. i can say much more but i don't want to get onto my soap box.


This is just fun....
Desert sand blowing in the wind

Desert sand blowing in the wind
Blowing in my mouth, hair and eyes.
It never seems to go away
For which I do despise.

Desert sand blowing in the wind
A peaceful calm as I hear your voice sing
over the playground and through the leaves
until I see the destruction you can bring.

Desert sand blowing in the wind
Sweeping up the floors is an endless chore
You always seem to come back no matter what I try
Whenever I turn my head, it seems you are even more.

Desert sand blowing in the wind
With your quiet beauty it seems to me,
That I can never complain of your color,
Your feel, but I think we will still disagree.

Desert sand blowing in the wind
It seems it seems I will never love you
Until you stop blowing in my eyes, hair and mouth.
For this is painful, you know it’s true.

Desert sand blowing in the wind
We will learn to tolerate
For being covered with sand from head toe.
Has become our unknowing fate.



Nikki- I replied to your questions in a comment on the post.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Sunday, March 1, 2009




this was taken just outside my dorm..

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Also... Over Valentines day weekend. I met up with the other female students and we went to Vegas. This was a great treat and was a nice way just to get out of everything here. It was a bit of a shock going from the nothingness here, to everything there. But it was nice to take a break from being Miss Bergsman for a weekend and really just enjoy myself.
First of all my adviser from IU came out to visit all of the student teacher. He told me that I am doing very well with the teacher aspect of my experience I just need to get more involved in the culture and the community. And this past week I have done that, The Personal secretary and her husband (the Dean of students) took us fishing. and i actually caught a fish! one of the High school teachers went with us, he made the trot for us. it was amazing, i have really missed fish around here and it was soon good.

Our Adviser took us to Dine College where we had the chance just to talk to our peers and learn from each others experiences. we also went had the chance to talk to the president of the college. we found us as we were getting lunch we kind of stuck out (who would have thought). After that we went camping in Canyon De Chelly, this was so much fun, we just relaxed talked and hung out the way normal college students would. I feel like we all broke away from being who we are and are stuck in Teacher mode so often. the only real downfall was how cold it was, we froze most of the night. but it was nice b/c us girls packed into one tent body warmth was needed. even our instructor who had a single tent decided it was too cold so he jumped in the tent with the boys. Also that night night we had a Rez dog and cat join us. well steal our food, the cat literally stole a hot dog out of the package to eat it. even though we froze it was still a great time and yet another way to get to know the people I am out here with.

We also went with some of the dorm students to see Sherman Alexi (who is a Native American author), talk at NAU. this was really funny, he talked about his life on the Rez, it was great to be back on a college campus and here college humor when I had to make everything PG living in the dorm and always being with students. Also the dorm counselor invited us to go to her mother to help her out. This can help us complete some of the project requirement that i need to do out here.

Lastly, the middle school S.S teacher is beginning to teach us to make fry bread. This is a traditional staple for Native Americans, it is so bad for you but it taste so good.

I am also heading into my last two weeks in the classroom before I start my reading practicum. I am really going to be sad to leave my class, it will be interesting to see how the reading program works from the other side considering how it goes against everything that i have learned.


for those of you who want to know a little more about the curriculum here is an essay that i wrote for my class back at IU.

The curriculum for the Shonto Preparatory School reading program is extremely standardized, which is failing to fit the needs of all the students. It is second for the second year for the Reading Mastery, which is a scripted reading program that the students often repeat after. The teacher it is very mechanical in the way they interact with the students. In general, this bores the higher achievers while the lower students have no idea what is going on. In addition to not satisfying the learning need for most students, many of the stories are not culturally relevant to the students. They read some stories about a tugboat and speedboats which some of the students might not have prior knowledge of to be able to connect to the story. There is very little cultural focus. I feel that so much more can be done, especially because these students have a culture rich with stories. If the students had the opportunity to read these stories in an educational setting, they could possibly be more emotionally involved and connect to the story better to comprehend it more. Furthermore, connected to their reading program is DIBBLES. The DIBBLES assess reading speed and very little comprehension. It serves as a benchmark to see where students fall and the amount of help they need. Yet it does not truly say what kind of help they need. The formative assessment does nothing but label the students and take away from the other languages they might know. Students are simply assessed on how fast they read without truly knowing the content of the text. In other subjects, there is no immersion in Bilingual education. According to the Navajo Nation standards, students learn better if they learn their second language as well. Yet schools do not use immersion practices to raise student achievement. In the other subject areas teachers have more free range to fit the needs of their students. That was they can bring in culture as they see fit and make things relevant to their daily lives, which makes students understand it more. The reading program is the only subject that is very strict on how it is implemented. I feel that the students’ needs should guide the curriculum rather than the standards. I understand the importance of standards, but they should serve as a guide rather than the whole lesson. There is such a strong focus toward reading, but the reading program only reaches the middle of the spectrum of children. To reach all children, students should be divided by their needs so we as teachers could work with those students who may need individual help. I just feel the reading program takes away from the individual.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Sorry everyone who has been reading this, I have just been super busy and haven't had the tune (or energy to make a new post. So to update everyone this might be a super long entry.

Well, first things first I have taken over most if not all of the instructional responsibility. so that is a new thing added to my plate. However I am still unable to use methods that I know might help the students. The reading program is so scripted the students are robots just repeating words and telling simple responses. Only a few of the students seem to really understand what is going on; the others just mouth along. The administrators say teachers should differentiation however, it is impossible because all the students are doing the same thing. It is a disappointment because I feel as though I am the teacher and have control over everything but this one thing.

There was a slight discipline problem in my classroom, I decided that I needed to do something to stop this problem. At then end of one day I asked all the children to write down what they thought was the most important rule that everyone needed to follow. I then typed out all the rules they told me and we talked about them. I told them these are the rules that they created. From there I asked them what they thought the consequence should be, they came up with very good consequences such as sitting alone, writing a note home, then talking to administrators. This is significant because I feel that it gives my students ownership over their rules and it also helps my students see someone who is there to help them, help themselves. It also should me as a facilitator not a dictator in the classroom. And it seems to be working really well, the students seem to be okay with writing a note home and telling their parents what they are not doing right.


With Tutoring from 6-9 things get frustrating, especially when we are with the boys. The boys react to us than the girls; we switch off tutoring the boys and the girls depending on the night. When we are helping the girls, they are all ready for us to help them. They come to us for help before we have the opportunity to ask them. It is great that they are seeking the help they know they need. However, with the boys we have to pull them away from whatever they are doing - watching TV, playing violent games on the computer - and force them to do their work. Some of the Dorm staff had to call over to the girls’ dorm because the boys lied and said they had no homework. It disappoints me because it makes my job, which is to help them, more difficult, and I feel like I am being a horrible person by trying them to get their work done.

Song and Dance- There was a Song and Dance fundraiser at the school. The idea of the song and dance originated from a ceremony that would go on until a bonfire would go out. At these ceremonies, people would dance in a circle around bonfire; the same way they danced around the table. It was very weird because the person that were announcing picked us out and asked us whom we were. The announcer also started to explain things in English for us; I guess we kind of stuck out. Overall, this was very interesting to see, although at first we were not sure what was going on. I really enjoyed seeing the traditional dresses along with hearing the Navajo singers, even though I did not understand what they were singing about. It sounded really awesome.


One of the highlights of past two weeks is when my class tried to give me a clan my first clan is salt. My cooperating teacher is the one who indicated it, but I told them that I wanted them to create clans for me then teach me how to say it. The Clan system is very important to Navajo relate to one another, everyone has four clans, your moms clan (your first clan) your second clan (your dads) and then your Maternal grandparents and your paternal grandparents. (i think that's write).

The Dorm students attended a Storytelling, as part of their culture night. We heard an elder, Jesse Daisy tell a story of the coyote and winter tradtions. Before he spoke, Dr. Yazzie explained about oral tradtions and word of mouth. He described the coyote as someone who teaches you and will help give balance in life and something that will try to trick you. I was unable to understand the speaker
however, he used his hands a little to give emphases to things he was saying.

Some people, will try to say anything to get something from people they see as an outsider. I was at Bashas (A grocery store), and someone asked me about my sweatshirt, it was the Cultural immersion sweatshirt, so I did not think much about it. However, he then said he was going to Gallup and needed a ride, he also asked for some money. I told him I could not help him and walked away.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Just to let you all know i made it so anyone can comment now!
Yesterday, I went to Canyon De Chelly. It was absolutely amazing, I will try to see if I can put pictures on here once my computer is back up. It decided to die on me, but I should be getting the CD to fix it by the end of the week. But, the pictures do not seem to capture beauty of it. it was truly breath taking and I cannot wait to see the Grand Canyon when we go (probably in February). I just don't think there would be a way to compare them. if Canyon De Chelly looked that breath taking I wonder what the Grand Canyon would be like.

But after that we meet up with some of the other IU teachers out here in Many Farms, and it was so much fun. We went to a Rez Ball game (basketball), to see the Many Farm Lobos play the St. Johns Red Skins (NO JOKE). it was a Norman school from just outside the Rez. On the Charter bus they took there was a picture of a completely white "Indian" it was so offensive. It was evident that there was a lot of drama between the students. We only watched the girls play but they were catty and vicious toward one another. It was pretty bad that some of the team members didn't realize that their Mascot was offensive, they thought it was perfectly okay. The team members even had their mascot on their warm up jerseys. it was just very wrong to see them there. I think part of the reason behind the mascot is because they get a lot of money from power plants on the Rez, but it is still something that should not be brought on the Rez. However, I must say that when the team played another school on the Rez, their bus got stoned.

After the game, all of us girls just hung out, we swapped teacher/dorm stories. We shared pictures from the day. The other girls had gone to Window Rock. It was really fun just sharing stories and talking about what we were doing and things that we had planned. Then we went to find something to eat at the "7 2 11" yes they don't have 7-11, its 7211. So that was a fun adventure trying to find food among all the dust in the store. But it was our only choice at 930 at night, when there are no other stores around. After our little journey to find food, we talked and hung out, until we realized that we are old woman, it was a struggle for us to stay up past 12. (wait we are becoming Adults). haha

On the way back from Many Farms we stopped at Bashas, the local grocery store, just so we can have food throughout the week if we don't like what is being served. this is about 30 minutes from us, and it really is the closest grocery store we have.

Friday, January 16, 2009

So what has happened since I last wrote; Well to say the least a lot. Last weekend we went to Page, here we went to Walmart, and Lake Powell. We say the Glen Canyon Damn, which was beautiful; i really did not think that the Colorado river was that blue. During the week, I of course taught and finalized my reading placement when my IU supervisor came to visit. I will be with the reading coaches and learning all sorts of new reading methods. Many of which IU failed to teach me, but it is going to be a great experience.

I also had a day long meeting where we analyzed data from DIBBLES, which is a Standardized Assessment where we see basically the reading speed and we talked about what the students needed to work on. Right after that I had a staff meeting, were I was just bombarded with more information. That same day, I went on a home visit with the Residential Counselor; this was really interesting. I was able to see what some families live like, this family happened to live in a Hogan and we needed a lot of dirt roads to get there, well the roads were more or less mud.

The next night I chaperoned a Dance for the Dorm students this was hysterical it seemed like boys and girls are the same everywhere No matter how old the children are they are still afraid of each other. For most of the dance, the older girls stood around the middle of the “rumpus” room, and the older boys sat along the wall. However, the little kids had no problem dancing and socializing with each other. As much as a tried to get the older children to dance with each other, it did no good. I don't know maybe they have cooties or something. I also Chaperoned a field trip to see a movie, we saw Australia and during every kissing scene the students would giggle, i forgot how much 13-15 year-olds giggle.

During school... We had parent teacher conferences and almost all of the parents came. we had 14 out of 18 parents come to talk to us. which was really nice and surprising. And now it is a three day weekend, currently i think are going to many farms to visit some of the other students out here.

Also have made at least two kids cry...

One Student, he got in trouble for talking back to me, when i sent him to the back of the lunch line after warning him about not going in the snow. another one when I told one of my girls she needed to sit in her seat. I think these are just extra sensitive students.


Other things that I have learned: it is tradtions to stretch when you first hear thunder during the first storm to represent the waking of animals that have been hibernating all winter.


It also seems that teachers are a lot tougher on younger students than I have seen in at schools back home, however I realize that children have many of the same tendencies. It is an over reaching tendency that when it comes to there personalities, that boys will be boys, playing and pushing each other, they will wait until you are not looking to do exactly what you told them not to do.


Some things I want to do are:
I would like to have a Presidential Inauguration Party for the students in the dorm. The Reservation seems very Liberal; our school principal is even going to the Inauguration. I feel that it is an important event for the students, not only because it is the future of our country, but because of how historical it is. Even though some of the students will not quite understand how important this truly is yet, they might regret not watching it later in life. This will enrich their lives because they will be able to tell their children where they were when President Obama officially became President of the United States of America.
In the classroom, I am planning on setting up small groups to help them with the reading. The skill I will be focusing on is short vowel sounds; ideally this will strengthen their reading skills while we try to have some benchmark in reading.


I also Learned that my cooperating teaching is retiring at the end of the year, i have had many people tell me that they want me to stay out here, which is great I am just not sure I can live this far out form civilization. Although I have made some great connections with some people, one of whom is a first year teaching from outside Chicago. Which is good to have the ability to do something with some other people my own age.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

well today i really got immersed in the cultural setting. They had an activity at the dorm called "dummy roping." Basically, this is lassoing, it was a very interesting experience.. given with my total lack of coordination I failed miserably it was a great way to learn about something new. There were two staff members who tried to help, and really wanted us to rope the fake steer; and the children.. well middle schoolers thought it was hysterical that they could get this and I couldn't. Yet that is the point of me coming out here. I get to try new things, experience things from a new cultural, and most of all gave fun with it.

As for my teaching, I have been talking to my class about Martin Luther King, I plan on doing a bulletin board where the students write there own "I have a Dream" speech. I have also been trying to do read alouds with the students. I don't feel as though they get a lot of authentic texts used with instruction. For me this is the total opposite of what I was told to do. Teachers here use scripted lesson plans for reading because of how low some of the test scores were. In math, the children are doing story problems. After going through papers I am really able to see the difference in abilities between students already. I hope as I take on more ownership of the classroom I am able to help the students by using more hands on activities. Although I am already starting to talk to my teacher about ideas I have it is only my first week. I am however reviewing differnt things with the students throughout the day.

as for out of school activities... from 5-6 I help serve in the cafeteria then we wipe down the tables. I find this really fun, the kitchen staff has become really helpful with many things, and trying to help me find food to eat (because of my interesting eating habits hehe). from 6-8 I will be helping in the dorms either tutoring or assisting/participating in more structured activities. I have been helping out some of the girls with their homework until I have an assigned group to tutor however, I feel they are becoming really dependent on that help. They know how to do the work, they just want someone there telling them if they are right or wrong. Another, school activity could end up be supervising an art club.

Other dorm related activities aside from tutoring will be helping with Parent Meetings. We will help create power-points to help parents understand varies academic portions dorm life and school life... such as understanding standardized exams and ways they can prepare their children for them, understand the scores, and knowing what is on them. I will was also asked to help create a news letter. in the news letter we will hopefully get students involved we will basically be monitoring it (with all hopes)

Lastly, we have already have had people invite us to various community events... one of the personal people wants to take us to a basketball game (rez ball)... one other person said he will take us to heard sheep (this was an example for what we can do for a service learning project. also we were invited to go with the residential director to pick up students on a Sunday, this would really show us the types of homes the student's come from. In Shonto, there are homes with no running water or electricity and it would be really interesting to see the wide range of home these student come from to really understand what they deal with on daily basis.

Monday, January 5, 2009

Day 1

As we were driving into Shonto and through the western portion of the United States, I realized how beautiful the untouched landscape is. I saw many new things for the first time; I was saw tumbleweed, cacti, wild horses and sheep in a forest. Something that I found to be interesting was the “cow crossing” and “horse” crossing signs; I typically see deer crossing signs not the other wild life. additionally the landscape it self is completely different; growing up in the Midwest I am used to seeing lots of tall trees and green grass, and in the winder time tons of snow, (well at least in Cleveland). Here there is some snow (although apparently they never get this much). In addition, I am not used to mountains; you can see mountains form almost any direction. The people around here are also extremely friendly; as I was walking through the school I teachers would walk up to me and introduce themselves, asking if I was the IU teacher. This is different from other schools I have been to because for the most part they are used to having IU teachers working in their school district. Overall, during the first day on the Reservation I have felt a lot like home, every person that I have ran into has been both very accommodating and welcoming. However, because of the lack of any surrounding stores, I have not been to any yet so I could not compare them to the ones that I am more familiar with.

Adaptations:

Expected Adaptations:
Waking up early! I have always been one of the people who likes to sleep, I am having to adapt to waking up earlier and going to bed later, because of the amount of activities and work I have to do.

Using basal readers fully within the curriculum, I knew that the school world be using basal readers, from what I saw on my first almost all of the activities have been out of the basal series. I am not that familiar with using them fully. I have only used them as supplemental activities.

Being more proactive: throughout my first day, I had to be more proactive, some people did not know that we were coming, so I had to be proactive about what I was needed and what I wanted to do. For example, the kitchen staff did not know that we were coming. So we jumped in the first night and helped out in the kitchen.

Baths rather than showers- Another, simple adaptations I have had to make was not having an actual shower.


Unexpected:
Formal lessons: The lesson that were taught within the class were very formal. The students would all read aloud in a big group, and then popcorn read. This was something very new to me because the in typical American culture we value how the individual learns. There was very little differentiation with the instruction even though there were some students who were obviously struggling. In addition, there was not a time limit on when the students were done, it seemed as thought they had all day to complete assignments as long as they were turned in by the end of the day.

Not being able to jump into conversations-, I have been one of the people who will jump into conversations to be part of the group. However, I cannot do that here because of the fact that I might not know what they are talking about because it could be something cultural.

Not necessarily being called by name: While working in the classroom, I noticed that the students would call me and my cooperating teacher “Teacher” rather than out given names. I think this is a cultural norm, after talking to Alanna.

There is little coddling to students: Another thing I noticed in the teaching methods they are more blunt to the students, there are some students who are obviously struggling and they are not protected at all, it was a lot of “you need to get better.” this was a major shock to me.


Felt accepted: Within the classroom setting I felt as though I was excepted as a teacher, when my cooperating teacher let me teach a full group lesson while she completed assessments that she did not get done during break. The children seemed attentive to the lesson at hand, although they were still distracted because it was their first science lesson, and they had gotten new books. Another way I felt included in the school was while I walking around the school, I had many teachers introduce themselves to me some of them even stopped me in the hallway. I really felt as though I was part of the schools community, everyone I talked to was extremely excited to see us there, at the same time many of them joked asking us way we came out there. These were the other teachers in the school and some of the administrators. In addition, while helping serving dinner, it seemed that I had a healthy raptor with the staff. One of the workers even said that he would pull us out of the elementary school to help them. While serving out food, we joked with the kitchen staff about making a mess and not always putting the food right on the tray. The woman next to me kept putting the potatoes where the cheese should have gone, it became a joke that I would not tell anyone. After working in the kitchen as we were cleaning a few students were still eating, these fourth graders asked us all sorts of questions about what we were doing, they asked where we were living when we told them that we were in their dorm they were excited. They asked us if we could come help them with their homework later (so we did). The children really seemed to like the one on one attention that were able to provide.


Felt like an outsider: It is hard to pinpoint a time when I did not feel excepted; it seems that most of the staff members are very happy to have us here. There are times when I just felt as though I didn’t know what to do, it was times like that when I did not feel completely excepted. However, once I made myself be a little more known I felt better about what I was doing out here. There was one time when I mentioned something as a heard part of a conversation, and it was a cultural thing, (about throwing the siblings in a cold bath when they bring home a new sibling). I did not feel excepted because I was not sure what they meant, but after it was explained to me I understood a little more. Other times, I have had teachers speak Navajo to one another, while I am standing there, this simply makes me feel like an outsider because I have no idea what is going on.



Other: Tim this part is for you…. Whenever we mention your name everyone is so excited, they all remember you. I told some of the teachers that you will be here in February and they want to see you.
On my first day of teaching I was put to work, I did a full group lesson in science. It was the classes first lesson in science for the year! This was surprising but I was up the challenge; it was one of those moments that made me feel like a real teacher. I also noticed that in the classroom, there is less individual instruction, I feel as though the students did a lot of worksheets, and activities right out of a basal reader. At times I feel like the teacher was reading a script.
I was also surprised by how many white teachers are at Shonto, I thought that more of the teachers would be Navajo.